Miss Me?

{wink} I missed yall!!

Many of you emailed me saying how you have went through or are going through the same things that I have been recently. I appreciate all of the thoughtful emails and comments that I've received on this subject. I'm sure you have wondered where I have been for the passed week. I'm here to fill you in.

Friday night, I moved out. I went to stay with my dad, but that only last one night because of some family issues going on over there. So the next night I went to my grandma's and I've been here since then. C had the girls all weekend, then I picked them up Sunday night and they've been with me since.

You may wonder how they are doing through all of this. Great!! They have not asked one question. Obviously Care Bear can't, but she hasn't acted confused or anything. Miss Priss is just super happy she gets to stay here at her Ambaw's house. C came and saw them last night, so that was good for all of them.

As for me, I've never been so happy in my life. Yes, my entire life is crammed into one room in my grandma's house and no I do not have a job yet, but emotionally i'm ecstatic. I feel like I can breathe again. I'm no longer miserable and withdrawn. I can finally be ME to the fullest!! Praise God for standing up for myself. I have caught a lot of crap from everyone around me and i'm one of the most looked down upon people around town, but you know what? It's all worth it because i'm just as happy as I thought i'd be. I don't miss it at all.

C is doing well as far as I can tell. I try to stay away from him as much as possible. I don't want him to get the wrong idea. So for now, we are just seeing each other when we switch the girls. He's been going to his parents a lot for supper etc.. Which is fine, I mean, what can I do about it now? "Our" house is a disaster. I told him he better clean it before I bring the girls back. Ugh. It's gross yall. Anyway, whatever..

SooOOoo!! I now have the internet at my grandma's house. I switched our DSL over to here. It took them three days, but I finally have it, so I can keep up to date better.

Most of you are friends of mine on facebook and you know that i'm selling all of my Bows in stock. Almost ALL of the Big Girl solid colors are gone. Crazy! I've been swamped. But so thankful! I wanted to sell my entire website, stock, directions on how to make the Bows etc.. But that would be pricey and I don't think anyone would want to go for it.

So that's the gist of what's been going on in my hectic life. It's a mess, but i'm so relieved. I know many of you don't agree with my decision, but I hope that you will respect me and still be around :)

I heard something last night that was thought worthy. If you knew where I heard it, you'd laugh so hard.
"Choose someone that you would want to be stuck in an elevator with."

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Wordless Wednesday - Stair Pictures

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An Appreciated Prayer {& a Praise}

Another melancholy post is on it's way..just to let you know. But this time it isn't Me, Me, ME!

Someone I know is going through something major in her life right now. She has been on the "wrong path"for a few years now. She chose the wrong crowd and became addicted to some things. Her daughter was born in 2007 and she is a sweetie! We all love her dearly, especially Miss Priss. They are besties. We all thought having her daughter would change her ways, but it didn't. She has been to numerous rehabs and counselling appointments, but always ends up in the same places.

This time though, it's gotten bad. She is 6.5months pregnant with a little boy. She didn't know she was pregnant with him until she was 4.5months. How? I have no idea. But she didn't, until she showed up in the hospital for trying to OD(allegedly)

Well, it happened again. She is 6.5mos. and ended up in the hospital with 3 different meds in her system. The baby's heartrate was to high. They did an u/s and found out that HE has a hole in his abdomen and brain and possibly has chromosomal defects. {sad face}

I'm sick. Literally sick. It disgusts me. I have no other words. Just please keep your opinions to yourself and say a prayer for this BABY! He does not deserve this.

{ps. If you know who i'm speaking of IRL, please, please DO NOT go around gossiping!!!! This does not need to be known. I decided to post it here for prayers.}

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Now for the Praise!

I think I got a JOB!! Are you silently saying "You think??" Yeah me too.

Well, here's how the phone call went.
"Hi KC! Can you come in at noon tomorrow?"
Me. "YES absoloutley!"
"Great. We want to introduce you to the doctors and staff and have you fill out some paperwork."
Me. "Okay great. Thank you!"

Now, hmm. Does that sound like I got the job or just an interview? She sounded very positive and upbeat, so i'm praying that I got it! Woo Hoo!! Don't want to get my hopes up to high just yet though.

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Care Bear Opthamology Appt 4

We had to take Care Bear in for her fourth Opthamology appointment at Children's. It was another scheduled routine visit. Both C and I were anticipating this visit as the visit where they'd schedule "the surgery."

We were right. I'm not sure if that's unfortunate or fortunate. It is fortunate because she needs it. Her poor little right eye is slowly failing. It's lagging behind the left eye quite noticeably. Last time we were there was in October and both eyes were equal, but now, three months later, her left eye is much stronger. It is unfortunate though, because I don't want my baby to have to undergo surgery. It's such an intense feeling of anxiety and it's still 2 months away.

I've waited for this day, for when they told us she needed the surgery because I want her to have it. I don't want her eyes to continue crossing and have even more reason for hateful kids to pick on her. I don't want her to lose vision in one of her eyes. However, I also don't want her to have to be put under with anesthesia. {sad face}

They gave us more patches {sigh} and this time they sent us home with Teragard tape that you put on top of the patches so that she can't rip them off as easily. Oh and if that doesn't work,they sent us home with arm braces that won't allow her to reach up and pull the patch off. Cruel much? I know.. right? That's what I thought, but if it helps to strengthen her right eye, I will do it.

For some reason, i'm emotional today. Everything sort of hit me hard. I'm excited to start a new chapter of my life, but at the same time on days like this when CB or MP need both of us, it's difficult to think of what you'll do at the next visit. Will we be there together? Will we still be on friendly terms? I hope so. For today though, we were. It was all about CB today. Lil princess as one of the nurses called her.

Stinker. She was so good through the entire process. They had to dilate again and that is just terrible for a 14 month old. Especially one who is already sensitive to the sun. She couldn't even open her eyes in the car, but she was a trooper and decided to just fall asleep. {smiley face}

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The UnMom Side

Yes i'm a mom and my kids are my world, but I do go out sometimes. So what?!
On New Year's Eve we went to a friend's house then out to a club. I guess it's called the club. I'm not sure about the proper lingo.
Here's a group shot of all the guys. They cracked me up all night.
My bestie Brian. I've known him since I was seventeen and we've discussed many things in our lives. He's a great friend.
This girl is awesome. She married a friend of ours and we never hung out much, but that night I got to know her pretty well. She also has a little girl that is 2.5. She's precious with bright red hair!
This was Girl's Night Friday night! The two girls on either side are my sisters {yes the oldest one is hanging out with me now..yay!!} We had such a great time. I just let myself be me for the night and had a great time with the girls.
Dancing like nobody's watching ;)
Cheesin' much? Yeah.. it was fun times. I love to dance, even though i'm awful!
My sister Traci. So glad they are a part of my life now! It's like i've known them forever.

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Big Like Hannah Montana

Miss Priss has a slight obsession with two "people". The first one being Tinkerbell, the second being Hannah Montana or "Mahley" {her southern way of saying Miley.}

Most of her Christmas gifts this year consisted of products of these two "people's." Mostly Tinkerbell, but there were a few Hannah Montana and Miley things in the mix. She loves the music! Girl can shake her booty if there's a good jam on.

She knows every somg of Miley's that comes on the radio and she lets you kow "MOMMA, that's Miley!!"

So.. quick change of pace. We've been trying to teach her how to wipe her own bottom. She's been full potty trained since April 2008 and it's high time she learned to wipe herself properly. She doesn't want to learn. She likes to holler from the top of the stairs "I'm DONE!!!"

We said "Don't you want to be a big like mommy?"
"NO!!"
"...big girl like Destiny {her cousin}?"
"NO!!"
"..big girl like ..... Hannah Montana?"
"... huh? Yeah! I gonna be big girl like Hannah Montana."

{wink} Success.

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Wordless Wednesday - Miss Priss' "Friends"

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